Dreaming to see you again

I am here talking to you for the first time in a long time. I barely remember your face, your touch, your smile but I still can feel your warmth close to me. I do not remember when I met you the first time, but I am sure it was magic. What I do remember the last time I saw you. You wore a white shirt, we were all together; it was a special day. However, I did not know I will remember that day for the rest of my life. This was the end of the happy story. But not the end of the book.

I growth up having your image in my mind, hiding all your memories, but you were always present in my everyday. Those times were tough times, but I had a great company by my side who I will never leave apart. I did not feel alone, although I simply did not feel. There was cold, there was no unity, there was no love.

I do not know where you went, and I do not where I was, but today I can tell you, my still fighting, I am still alive, and everything is thanks to you. After many years, things come back to their natural place, but everything seems different. Those time were tough times, we missed you, but nobody talked about it. I was young, innocent and ignorant. And that made me fall and fall again. That hurt, but I did not realize that I was not fighting alone, even if we were not fighting together. I lost you many times, but I never forgot you, and you have never left me alone.

Time passed, and with it also the bad memories. We found the way to meet again, overcoming the
differences. We found each other again, and your memory has made us stronger. Things are different, but that does not mean negative. We learned, I did, and I am still doing so.

Those times were hard times, but I am still fighting, I am still alive, and everything is thanks to you. We love each other, we are again together and we still miss you. This day I missed more than only you... I remember everyday that you are still with me, and we are again all together. Different place, different live...same feeling.